I should be leaving the Air Force soon if they process my paperwork right this time.

I spent a lot of time stuck in places and airframes I didn't want to be in. It was UPT and AMC. I didn't end up there due to bad performance, it was mostly due to luck and timing. I had a really hard time watching people who failed courses, struggled in UPT, got in trouble, get the assignments I wanted due to missing VMLs, waivers needed for instructor duty, changing rules, or other factors.

I feel like my youth was just... wasted and I have little to show for it. I don't have much pride in what I accomplished and I never was truly engaged or challenged.

I am angry I spent 15 years of my life generally working hard and not screwing up like many of my peers and I got exactly what I didn't want.

I have a CJO lined up which is great, but I am concerned I am going to spend the rest of my life unsatisfied because I never really scratched the itch of getting enough action or getting anything I wanted out of the Air Force. Some people suggested I stay, but after being dragged through the mud for 10 years I have significant trust issues with the institution, and watching better people than me leave for the Airlines says a lot.

Am I missing something? Was this is it, and does it get better when you separate? I don't want to be resentful for the rest of my life.

Edited 13 hours ago13 hr by illusive
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That sucks, but also only you can control your attitude. Go forward with life choosing a positive outlook and find something that gives you purpose/sense of accomplishment. The airlines are great for pay/benefits/QOL, but you will get zero feelings of accomplishment or satisfaction out of it. Your AF career should not define the rest of your life.

The way you phrase it makes it sound like you have a superiority complex and blame external things when you don't get what you want. That may or may not be true, but that's the one-post impression.

If the AF doesn't do it for you, go seek greener pastures. Figure out what is important to you, and go do that.

Best wishes that you find what fulfills you.

Edited 11 hours ago11 hr by raimius
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I felt similarly on my way out. Almost a decade later I'm grateful for the training that's enabled me to go out to civilian life and make more money than I ever thought was possible. Once it started to stack up, it got much easier to look back without resentment.

Definitely recommend getting out.

Like others said its an awesome new chapter and its up to you on how you look back. Accept the dogshit but embrace the good (people, good trips, etc.). Don't try and paint it perfect.

You are gonna find a lot of people are having a similar experience. There is a 311 page thread about what's wrong with big blue.

Edited 3 hours ago3 hr by jonlbs

5 minutes ago, jonlbs said:

Definitely recommend getting out.

Like others said its an awesome new chapter and its up to you on how you look back. Accept the dogshit but embrace the good (people, good trips, etc.).

You are gonna find a lot of people are having a similar experience. There is a 311 page thread about what's wrong with big blue.

Thanks, it seems more common these days than not.

8 hours ago, raimius said:

The way you phrase it makes it sound like you have a superiority complex and blame external things when you don't get what you want. That may or may not be true, but that's the one-post impression.

If the AF doesn't do it for you, go seek greener pastures. Figure out what is important to you, and go do that.

Best wishes that you find what fulfills you.

Yeah I didn’t word things really well. Long story short I got a really bad must-film because people couldn’t or wouldn’t upgrade/pass training and I’ve been stuck ever since.

11 hours ago, illusive said:

I am angry I spent 15 years of my life generally working hard and not screwing up like many of my peers and I got exactly what I didn't want.

Honest question: You're punching out at the 15 year mark?

38 minutes ago, Blue said:

Honest question: You're punching out at the 15 year mark?

Not commissioned, I’m including the time it took to get the commission too as time spent chasing this dream. Commissioned it’s about 11.

For any young readers seeing this, I will say a lot depends on the community you go to, the average leadership in that community, etc etc. We all complain about the same things (aircrew have a masters degree in sport bitching), but in the end I don’t personally know a single pilot who has left the AF with extreme dissatisfaction. Obviously it happens, but I do not think it’s the norm. I think it’s fairly normal to be glad you’re getting out at that specific point in life, but don’t mistake that for equating to “it was all terrible, I hated every minute, and it was totally not worth my time.” I’m excited to be done soon and fully transition to”phase 2” of life, but in spite of the BS that drives me crazy, the last ~20 years has been phenomenal overall and I have no ragrets.