I'm currently waiting on my FC1/MFS stamp approval w/waiver, so I am anticipating a late summer early fall OTS start date. Currently working at a huge engineering defense contractor and experiencing terrible burnout. Just got pulled aside by my team lead and said my teammate told him I am not performing and there is no progress from me. I feel like I am limping to the finish line and God forbid my MFS gets denied and I can't attend UPT. I have little to no passion for what I do and it results in me watching YouTube for like 6-7 hours a day, especially because I am working from home. I am stepping it up now because I don't want to lose my job just in case but this fire under my ass won't last long and isn't sustainable.
My question is: if I am blessed and pass my MFS and get to UPT, will this burnout carry over? I want to be the best pilot I can be but I don't want this to be a red flag for happening in the middle of UPT when things get hard. Just looking for advice cause I am really starting to get down trodden and lose hope as I feel worthless right now for some reason. If it is just a nut up and shut up situation and tough it out then I will gladly do it lol. But I want to make sure if this is behaivor I need to fix before UPT, then it is fixed before then.